i have blogged now for nearly 2 years and for some reason still struggle to this day to know what to right sometimes, i know that i want to write but just can not decide what to write about first or how to put it, the past year has been a good year, dont get me wrong there has been ups and downs but nothing like the years we have had. Today life is looking really good, i mean really really good.
we are 11 weeks away from bringing harrison marley sam jacklin into the world, and couldnt be happier, we still think of maddison every single day, i still sit here and imagine what she would look like, or what sort of personality she would have had, but i can not go through life dwelling of what could/should have been. some days are harder than others but i have now more good days then bad days, sometime this makes me sad because i think maybe i should have more bad days than i do, BUT, would i still be here if i had more bad days, would i have what i have if i had more bads days would i be the person i am if i had more bad days? NO i wouldnt and at this point in time i dont want to change things i want things just as they are, we have our 4 beautiful children with us, we have harrison growing bigger and stronger by the day and we have our beautiful angel watching us, makeing us stronger with the love i know she has for us,.
so there i wrote, i am sure i could have wrote more, and i think that its gonna be my new years resolution to write more this year, to involve whoever reads this in my life, my life without maddison,x
we love u baby girl forever and ever and always xxx <3 x
