Really bad blogger!!

omg its the 19th of july 2012, hahahaha my new years resolution didnt really work did it, i think i have proberbly wrote less than what i did last year ;-L o well suppose i better start a fresh hay!!! im finding it quite hard to decide whether to carry on with this blog or to start a new one, i think to myself as i read through the posts i have written in the past and think this is not who i am now, ok maddison will always and i mean always be a massive part of my life but does this blog make me go back to the feelings that have long disappeared, i have grown in the last 2 years and alot in my life is different now, my life no longer feels MY LIFE WITHOUT MADDISON, it feels "MY LIFE!!" now not my life without i proberly feel more so now that she is here with us all than ever before. i often look at harrison and see her in him the way that his hair falls the way his nose points up even tho maddisons nose bless her was a little sqwished but you know what i mean, there lips are so similar :-) you know i dont look at him and think of him as her because he isnt but they have the same genes they are brother and sister they have the same blood. i am so proud of my babies they are my life, i wouldnt know what do without them, maddison is my angel my beautiful little angel and she has made me the person i am today. so this is me for another day ill try not to leave it so long next time but im not promising anything :-) xxx lots of love to everyone who reads this, speak soon x love and miss you baby girl xx