Am i really ready ??

From very early on myself and phil decided we were going to try for another baby we both wanted it and it was never really an issue about trying to conseive so early, there were a few issues but mainly i think it was all me and the need to put myself at ease on the whole thing. i kinda can say that i think more so it was the fact of people thinking o my god they are trying to replace maddison. this was not the case and still is not the case 6months of trying later, neither of us would ever want to replace maddison we just feel that it is something we want to do if its not now then it will be a year 2 years or even longer as we have always said it will happen when it happens x

I never knew that trying to fall pregnant could be such hard work i could have brought shares in pregnancy tests, its awful its just not happening im trying so hard not to think about it so much but some days it unbearable, how can your body be so mean how??? a week late on my period 3 pregnancy tests and still NEGATIVE what the f.... be nice to be pleaseeeeeee but i stop and say o well next time or wait a couple more days and maybe then ill get the answer i am hopeing for x
its now saturday 26th june 2010 ill maybe wait till tuesday see if finally i come on or take test number 4 hahahha i make myself laugh im a woman obsessed i never thought it would have taken this long looking bk 6 months silly aye but as people keep telling me maybe im just not ready, we'll have to see all keep fingers crrossed for me xxx

peace out hehehe xxx