it was finally our turn that anxiety soon turned into excited when we found out there was a heartbeat our faces lit up :-) but soon that happiness turned into worry, the sonographer seemed worried she was going over and over the same part of the baby then she turned to us and said i need to refer you to the dau (day assessment unit) i think the baby has something called gastrischisis, what is this we asked? its were the babys intestines are protruding through a hole in there abdominal wall its where she hadnt formed properly :(
we couldnt belive it something was wrong and we had no idea and to what extent she was poorly. so off we went to the dau and waited for our hurrided appointment with the consultant.. worrying phoneing our parents to let them now that there was something wrong..
we both just sat there in silence thinking. i cant remeber what i was thinking to be honest now..
we finally got into the consultants room after what seemed like hours, i layed down and they put that jelly on my stomach and started looking..... we waited in silence again... "your baby has something called gastroschisis, blah blah blah it was such a blur and to be honest again cant really rember much..
we were going to be scanned from 16 weeks every two weeks we had to do alternate fortnights at 2 different hospitals, Hinchingbrooke then addenbrookes, we would carry this on until around 36-37 when they would induce me.. x
i remeeber going straight home and crying literally none stop for 3 days at this point i didnt think things could get any worse little did i now.. i looked so much up on the internet literally every piece of information i could find i look at.. you tube videos and blogs from other parents part of me now wishes i had started this then.. phil was quite quiet about it all he tries not to let things worry him but i knew deep down that he worried just the same as me...
we went for so many scans and im soo glad now that we got so many pictures..
the weeks went on with the countless scans we kinda got bores of them after a while to be honest lol its so draining everytime you go getting that feeling of the first scan... and the worry of it all. but as we reached each milestone the countdown was getting so near. :-)
all the kids were so looking forward to it everytime we brought baby clothes home the girls faces lit up. we didnt buy big stuff like pushchairs and cot and things like that as we knew she would be in scbu for at least 4 weeks as she would have needed a operation as soon as she was born to put her intestines back in.. there were so many different things that we had to take on her weight was dropping and she wasnt growing fast plus my amnotic fluid was reducing, plus i was so poorly the whole time i was pregnant, i was admitted to hinchingbrooke for 2 days with servere tonsilitus i couldnt eat or drink for 2 days it was awful, but we carried on... the summer past and all the kids birthdays and we were soo looking forward to christmas our first christmas together, we had it at our house it was brilliant the kids loved it and the food was yumi and for being 7 months pregnant i looked wicked lol xx
boxing day came this being the best memory that me and phil will keep in our hearts forever she moved so hard and so jumpy that this was proberly the first time she had eva moved properlyfor phil we both laid there laughing, smiling and holding her ....this makes me feel so sad writing this but i had to put it in because this was the last time that either of us felt our baby move.............
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