can you lose happiness.....

can you lose happiness? is it something that you can lose ? is it something that you can get back???

i think i have lost it, silly i now it sounds but i truely feel that i have lost mine, everything and i mean everything gets to me, why do people feel that they can treat me like shit and ill be ok, i am sad really really sad, sometimes i wanna just end it all and get out of this.. i want to be happy again not to let every little thing get too me like i have been kicked when im down, i want to me again i dont feel strong i feel like i have no strength left none what so ever and i want it back i want my life back my old life my happy life where i have it all... i WANT to feel loved again i feel no one loves me sad i now and i now you might be thinking oh my god this woman is so depressing, but i just feel this way i feel unloved and i hurt i always hurt........

i hate the feelings i hate feeling weak i hate feeling sad i hate myself i just hate it hate it hate i want to be me i want my happiness back ............................