just write...

just write says me i have been trying to just write for days now and for me this is weird as i always normally now what to write but for some strange reason i begin to write then delete ???

this past week has been hard to say the least im trying to stay strong and to be honest think i am copeing quite well, i am hanging on i am beginning to talk more to people as have been serverly told off in the last couple of days for holding it all in . i am not superwoman, this i now but sometimes feel like i have to be just to get us through this.

its amazing how something can change your life so quickly, it still amazes me thinking how different i am, we are everything is, how one tiny little lady has changed so much.

the last week or so so much more has changed, i have realised an even newer perspective on life weird hay how can life change much more for me, o it can it defently can.

i miss you so much baby girl and daddy does too, we talk about you more and smile when your name is mentioned the hitting pain i used to get when your name was mentioned doesnt hurt as much now, we went to southend carnival yesterday and i did think off you when we were watching the fireworks, thinking if only you were with us wondeering if you would have liked them as you would have been nearly 6 months old and would have proberbly been amazed at them. not one day goes past when i dont think off you and miss you madly i love you so much just i ask you one thing keep daddy going keep him on the right track he loves you so much i now you are watching him and takeing care of him we love you so much sleep tight baby visit us in our dreams xx