feeling a bit better x

lately been feeling alot better i cant quite put my finger on what it is but all i now is that i feel calmer and less anxious. at the beginning of the week i felt awful i could have killed i was that angry but now its friday and im starting to feel myself again. how long will it last ? god only nows.

im still keeping my fingers crossed as im still not on the blob, i dont now if its going to creep up on me and surprise me or if this is the time for us, phil thinks it happened last night but im certain well kind of certain i already am. but after about 7 tests still a BIG FAT NEGATIVE all around.
o well ill wait a week and then ill be going to the doctors and getting checked out, im back to the doctors next friday anyways so will TRY to wait untill then.

Phil is starting to feel a bit better too, which is good im not panicking as much as i was but still he is trying to be too cocky but thats phil so ill just have to put up with it hehehe.. Love you babes xx

kai going to his dads tomorrow am going to miss him so much just hope it doesnt knock me back as it seems too when he is not here, im gonna try so hard. Love you Baby boy x

Worrying alot about my bestie today she is so sad at the minute, i hope everything is ok with her and it all works out back to normal, i hope she still nows that im here for her even if i dont seem too be sometimes lately, love her too bits would be very very lost without her xx love you LADY xxx

Also today summer is beginnig to walk more so hopefully soon will be able to put piccys of her on here i cant wait to see her do it proper hehhehe love you my beautiful god daughterxx

well thats me done for today of to be i go hope everyone is ok ill be back soon xx much love xx