today is another bad day to add to the list of bad days, from the minute i woke up i knew that it was coming, i hate these days but this one feels like its gonna be a long trog to try and get myself out of.
today i feel useless and feel that i was the reason why she didnt survive, i done something why didnt i change the things that i did why didnt i be more aware of her movements, i failed her i failed everyone...
i just want her here with us to hold her kiss her and smell her i would give anything to have a cuddle with her,..
why did this happen to me? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ??? i wish things were so different i wish shee was still here she should be here where she belongs i would have taken care of her loved her more than anything more than anyone...
this is so not far so not far.....
im going to go to the doctors on monday as i cant handle this anymore i need help need someone to help me i want someonee to take this pain away from me, i dont understand this pain and i dont want to feel this pain anymore someone please please take it away from me!!!
today i feel useless and feel that i was the reason why she didnt survive, i done something why didnt i change the things that i did why didnt i be more aware of her movements, i failed her i failed everyone...
i just want her here with us to hold her kiss her and smell her i would give anything to have a cuddle with her,..
why did this happen to me? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ??? i wish things were so different i wish shee was still here she should be here where she belongs i would have taken care of her loved her more than anything more than anyone...
this is so not far so not far.....
im going to go to the doctors on monday as i cant handle this anymore i need help need someone to help me i want someonee to take this pain away from me, i dont understand this pain and i dont want to feel this pain anymore someone please please take it away from me!!!
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