Throughout this shit i have come to realise that there are so many careing people in this world, also the thing that i have realised is that shit things happen to nice people....
why is this you have the people out there that dont give a shit the people who hurt others the people that hurt there own, then there are the nice people in this world, dont get me wrong im not saying that i am a saint but i am not evil, i love my own would do anything for my own i like to thinik that i help people when they need help, like the many people i have come to love through this awful time, they are good people, they too love there own would die for there own, are there for people they do not just care for themselves, they think of others yet why has this shit happened to us..????
i now i have done a post like this before but i just cant understand why this happens to us???
why did the expression come about.. everything happens for a reason i myself have used this fucking awful saying so many times, why though i dont belive it really why should i why did this happen there must have been a reason there just must have...
i now this is really random, i remember going to a jahovahs witness funeral when i was about 13 years old, my friend died of a brain tumour at 12 years old and at his funeral they said that the reason why he died at the young age was because someone in his family had sinned so bad that he had to die because of this.. what the fuck is that about i have always remembered this and feel that this is why my beautiful baby girl was taken from me, i look back in my life and think of all the things that i did and said that were mean and think thats why, because i was that horrible this happened to me....
life is so cruel at times, why are such things sent to us to challenge us, why why why??? she didnt deserve to die none of the precious babies deserved thiswhy were they sent to us if they wernt meant for this world...
i just wish i could understand this... but to be honest i just dont think i will ever beable to understand it.. this is hell im living in its just not fair....
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